Wednesday, January 25, 2012

my apology

Here is my apology…

I’m sorry.
I’m sorry I never seen.
I’m sorry for not believing.
I’m sorry for not being there.
I’m sorry for not being better.
I’m sorry for calling you names.
I’m sorry for my rage.
I’m sorry for being young and immature.
I’m so sorry I wasn’t better.
I could have been.
I would have been.
I’m sorry I didn’t realize sooner.
I’m sorry it’s too late now.
I’m sorry I can’t take it all back.
If I could,
I would.

I’m sorry I ever said you were ugly.
I was the ugly one.
I’m sorry for being ugly.

I’m sorry for not appreciating you.
I’m sorry I took you for granted.
I’m sorry I don’t remember.
I’m sorry I have to say that I’m sorry…
I’m sorry for the little things,
I never did for you.
I’m sorry for it all.
I’m sorry.
I should have been better.
I’m sorry I pushed you,
I’m sorry I pulled you.
I’m sorry for the times I stabbed you in the back.
I’m sorry for the times I stabbed you in the front.
I’m sorry I didn’t share.
I’m sorry I was selfish.
I’m sorry for being so stupid.
I’m sorry I let you down.
I’m sorry you were ever a target.
I’m sorry for the times
that I made you feel worthless.

I didn’t have the right.

I will keep my apologies
on a shelf in my heart…
so the next time I see you,
I can apologize from the start.

1 comment:

She said...

Apologizing is one of the most painful yet necessary parts of life. :/ myself, for myself, for my actions, for everything...
I wish I had a button to make me realize sometimes.